Ah, a new month, a new beginning! How figuratively refreshing. While I know that November first is technically no different than any other Sunday, there’s always this “clean slate” feeling when a new month arrives. It’s time for a quick reflection, and a new goals/habits list!
I started off October pretty strong. I got a bunch of annoying to-do’s out of the way that were on my to-do list for months. I was exercising regularly, and I felt like there was a momentum going on. And then the mother of all excuses hit: I got my period and excruciating cramps. Everything was put on pause. My screen time blasted up, my youtube consumption reached new heights, and I ultimately sunk into a comfortable slump right back on my comfy sofa. Now after lily-dallying for an entire month, I’m ready to try and do stuff again. Get a move on with my life.
Oh sweet sweet November, please be the month where I work really hard.
Manifesting: Hard work!! Hard work! Hard WORK!!!!!
Okay, to. be completely honest I started this article this at the end of October, and two weeks later still haven’t finished writing it… Oh boy, an ominous sign.
The first two weeks of November were full of resistance. I wanted to get up, but then I would find myself on Youtube for the whole day. I would want to wake up early, but I would slam my alarm off and not even bother to snooze (hello 10am mornings!). I wanted to eat cleaner and work out even more because I’ve been feeling especially sluggish with the new time change where it gets dark at 4:30pm. All I did was inhale chocolate bars, brownies, and endless carbs. There’s such a long to-do list of things I need to do to get somewhere with my life. Anywhere damn it! Alas, my job hunting list is empty, and my youtube/blogging goals have been abandoned.
Basically…I am not working hard like I want to.
I’ve tried being nice to myself (It’s okay!!! You’re human, no one’s perfect, you can start doing stuff tomorrow!).
I’ve tried being mean with tough love (You can’t keep living like this!!! You deserve better! You need to work now to get what you want later!!).
And I’ve even tried reverting to aggressive insulting jibes that I promised I would stay away from. (You’re so pathetic jesus christ. Everyone else your age is already working on what they want and you’re just taking up space. Fucking useless). Spoiler: I don’t do this anymore since it’s not effective anyway.
And absolutely nothing has worked the past two weeks. I think the reality of the matter is I need to stop the whole whiny thinking process, and just do.
And so to manifest a good rest of November, here are my November Goals:
Focus on Researching Jobs and Grad School
This is pretty self explanatory. This has been on my to-do list since the start of 2018 and good god have I avoided it for years (and it shows!). To be honest, I have no desire to do any of this, so I hope I can at least make a list of jobs that I would want to explore, and look through grad school programs to see if anything sparks my interest. Nothing crazy like starting grad school applications…I just really need to shift my focus from trivial things like googling “best sweater vest outfits 2020”, to “Psychology careers 2021”. Ahhhhhh Life huh?
2. Health and Skincare
These two things will always be on my mind. In November, my specific goal is to start adding weights to my cardio exercise. I just go on the elliptical for 30 minutes and call it a day. Well…deep in my heart I know that’s not enough to build strength. So I need to add arm exercises, abs etc. Being indoors all day is just not good for my health, I’ve been so stagnant its sad.
As for skincare… I’ve honestly never paid attention to it much. I use cetaphil and a moisturizer, slap on a topical cream my doctor prescribed and call it a day. The results are very subpar. I have so many breakouts, and I know half of it is because of genetics/hormones, but the other half I know I could improve with a better skincare routing and a holistic health approach (avoiding sweets, exercising more rigorously, water intake blah blah blah you know the drill). So my main goal for November is to look for one moisturizer that would suit my skin, and one cleanser. If I’m feeling extra productive, maybe a serum that would prevent breakouts/get rid of dark spots from acne.
3. Adding variety to your life!!! You’re in your early 20’s, you don’t have to live like a sad hermit!!
I understand we’re in a pandemic and social distancing as well as more pressing challenges have taken over our lives. My family is incredibly cautious even months deep into the pandemic, which means my social life has gone from 10% socially active to 1% socially active.
When the pandemic started in March, I was great at adding variety to my life. I explored interests and hobbies that I had, would try to reach out to friends, and actually walked outside and explored different parks around my neighborhood.
Then summer hit, and it was hot, uncomfortable, and I fell into the largest slump of the year. Life was repetitive and boring, and I despised everything. Now when Fall came around I got myself back up, but I’ve become complacent and settled with doing nothing all day.
Well the holidays are right around the corner, and I think that’s a great way to add variety to my life! I’ll be focusing on preparing for christmas and giving my friends and family that christmas spirit that’s been gone for the past couple of years honestly.
So even though life’s hard, try something new every week. It doesn’t have to be something expensive. For me I love reading and language learning so those are some cheap things to try out. Or crafting, or walking a new route around your neighborhood. Change your phone wallpaper. Move your desk to the other side of the room. Try drinking lemon ginger tea if you usually drink matcha. It doesn’t have to be big, it just has to be something different. Use what you have and spice it up a bit.
To accomplish this goal, I have to bring my family somewhere new twice a month. Of course it will have to be outside since…we’re paranoid about covid lol. I think it’ll be nice. It’ll probably be parks again. As for myself, I’ll be attacking new hobbies. I love hobbies.
Mini goals!! (goals that are fun but not as important):
Language learning language learning language learning!!!!!
I have to brush up on spanish. I used it for my job and good god I was horrendous. I’m also trying to start learning korean. I watch a lot of korean entertainment, and it just makes sense to try and learn it for fun. I’ve learned how to read phonetically, and now it’s just a matter of diving in deep to start actual content learning.
It’s just one of those things where I have to sit down, take out my materials, and start. Once I get started I LOVE IT. I have so much fun going over vocab, reading things, listening. But getting started is the hardest part.
The only downside is that sometimes it takes my brain longer to think of words because all the languages just bunch up. A small price to pay though for being able to understand so many languages.
2. The dream of being a freelancer and trying to make it into a reality
This ones heartbreaking lol. I didn’t know how much effort it took to plan, create, and publish any type of content. THAT SHIT IS SO HARD!!! Youtubers and bloggers make it look like a piece of cake! I was like, shit I could do that and make tons of money too! Well, a dream is called a dream for a reason lol. We love the end result but sometimes we forget it takes years of creating sad subpar content, trial and error, and just plain failure.
Still….I want to see if I can make it with writing, or content creating. I keep talking about it like a big dream and never do it. It’s not something that’s insanely impossible either, I just gotta work for it!!!
3. Cleaning consistently and putting things back where they belong
I’m grown, and I still have issues with doing this. I’ll skip a bathroom cleaning day, I’ll leave a dish on the table, and it annoys me. So I’ll make sure I’m more intentional with my area, and to put things back immediately when I’m done using it.
I can’t nag my family to put things back and clean when I can’t even do it myself so. I’ll work on me first.
4. Christmas time is here!!!
Christmas is here! I love the holiday season, because it makes me feel so warm and excited on the inside. Of course once you reach a certain age…the magic just isn’t there anymore.
So this year I have time to change that, and I want to change that.
I’m going to make a list of things that will hopefully rekindle the christmas spirit in my family. Right now I’m prepping, because I kind of want to vlog everything like vlogmas…I’m so excited. I have a lot of ideas.
When your busy in college there’s just no way to focus on the holiday season. NOW THAT IM HOME, and I only have a part time…oh my god I can go crazy LOLOL. It’s just the effort that will take me…will I do it or settle for less…
And that’s about it.
Just looking at my list of goals…I know it’s not going to be possible to complete them at the level that I’m imagining. There’s just no way as a human would I be able to completely and succesfully incorporate all that. Going from 0 to 100 in just two weeks…um that sounds insane.
Or is it?
Eh, either way, I’m going to do my best. I just want to start doing all this before New Years, so by the time New Years hits, I’ve been trying to start what I want to start you know.
We’ll see how I do for the rest of November since the beginning was slightly dissappointing. I do have a lot of hope and good energy for the rest of November. I think I’ll do well. I’m excited!
Alright folks, that was it. I hope your November is alright wherever you are.